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Friday, May 30, 2008

Emotional Rollercoaster kind of day

Lots of ups and downs today. I'm worn out, but let me give you some quick highlights. Maybe I'll get back to fill in details later, although I never did do that with the Tuesday 10 as I intended to do this week. Ah well .. . where to start . ..

The room mom and I suprised mini-me's class with a visit from the ice cream truck today (and for her other dd's class as well). What a hoot it was to get those kids all worked up and excited!

My mother is moving out of my house after nearly 3 years! Has it been 3 years really? I'll have to double check on that. It may have only been 2 1/2. It seems like forever. I had such high hopes when she came to live with us, of her enjoying her grandaughter, having family game nights and movie nights, and going shopping etc. I dreamt of her telling us stories about her childhood during the great depression and what it was like to live in America during WWII. In reality, she has spent most of her time here incredibly unhappy and it is a huge relief to see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am worried that she will bury herself in debt again, but I am not planning to bail her out again. Well, truthfull, I didn't want to bail her out the first time, my hubby insisted. See, I told him it was a bad idea! lol Anyway, she can go back to living with the daughter that she loves so much and is so perfect in their trailer in Monroeville, IN with boyfriends coming in at all hours, sis smoking, and drinking, and coming in whenever she wants to. She will at least feel useful that she can help their monetarily. Maybe we can finally difuse the rumor that she came to live with me to help with my daughter. you know, the one who asks her to play and gets rejected 95% of the time? Welcome to my world, little mini-me - I am so sorry to have inflicted it on you.

The sad part of the whole thing is that I do feel very vulnerable these days. The inlaws are moving away around the same time, and we are leaving our public school where I have found some treasured friends.

I am discovering that dh most likely has Asperger's and dealing with possible CADD (Cassandra Affective Deprivation Disoder) myself. Summer is starting and my much-needed support system is tenous at best. Lots of people I care about around me have their own sets of issues going on right now and I shouldn't be bothering them with mine. Especially those that should - and in some ways really do - make me feel better about life. Other friends will be travelling a lot this summer. At least I still have my Mandy! She is closer than ever, but the gas prices are prohibitive. At least I got the Prius!

4 comments:

Mandy said...

I was worried about the debt thing as well, but then, she will do what she wants anyway. At least you got her out of the downward spiral so that she can make a fresh start toward a new one.

Mrs. Chili said...

You know what? True friends won't BE "burdened" by friends in need. Lean on 'em - that's what they're there for.

Cari said...

Wow she's moving out? That's probably best. You can't make someone change and there's no need for her to drag you down with her. (((hugs)))

Lanie Painie said...

I woke up so dang HAPPY this morning! I'm even starting to collect boxes for the big move. Hubby has already claimed the rights to her room and is daydreaming about the remodel. Happiness abounds on Fullington Road this weekend!